Hey Ya’ll,
I thought since this weekend coming up is Father’s Day, I would talk a little about fathers.
To be honest…just saying the word daddy makes me want to cry. My heart is so broken, because my dad isn’t in my life anymore… like he used to be.
Yep, I was one of those little girls that just loved her daddy, so much.
My daddy was crazy, always being silly and making me and my brothers laugh.
Daddy was the one who loved to bring me and all my friends places and cut-up with us along the way…
And… when I was a little girl, my daddy even brought me to his baseball games!
…When I was a baby I had a dress that was pink and said “Daddy’s Little Girl”, and daddy always called me that. It made me feel so special.
I remember my daddy had so much personality, he was always full of life.
And as I grew up, many people would say, “you look like your mama, but you act like your daddy”.
…And I used to laugh about it.
As I became an adult, I noticed my daddy seemed to be acting differently towards me and my family. He wasn’t as close to me as he used to be….He was always stressed out about something and just didn’t seem happy.
Then eventually, mama and daddy went their separate ways….
…And I took it very hard.
I believe it doesn’t matter how old you are when parents decide to divorce. Its difficult no matter what age you are.
Well, what I’m getting to is this. My mama is still the same beautiful mother she always was but for some crazy reason, my daddy changed.
I used to cry and be in sorrow for missing him so much. You see, he started a new life and I just don’t fit in it anymore.
He also used to be a great Paw-Paw to my children and now, well…he isn’t who we thought he was.
I know there are all kinds of dads in this world. And I feel like I was blessed to have grown up in a home with what I do believe was a good father. I just dont feel like a daughter to him anymore. And, it hurts.
So, Fathers Day will not be celebrated with my dad again, this year.
So, if your dad is still in your life, you are blessed. I hope you can appreciate the good there is in a man who can still call his daughter, “Daddy’s Little Girl”.
“And as I grew up, many people would say, ‘you look like your mama, but you act like your daddy’.”
-Hm…deja vu much> I’ve heard this my whole life!
Xo
ps sorry about you know who…people change, and for them it may be better, and for us we may never see it that way.
Love you forever.
Whenever I hear a story like that, I cannot help but think that somewhere (even if it is deep down) parents who alienate their kids KNOW they did something wrong, and KNOW they should attempt to right the wrong (as best as one could ever right such a thing). I also think that they feel as though they never could, won’t be accepted, etc. Unless the person in question is mentally ill, of course.
No matter what the reason, I’m so very sorry. Reading your story brought tears to my eyes.
My parents divorced when I was 8. I was Daddy’s Little Girl myself once upon a time. After my folks divorced, my relationship with my dad was never the same. We are still in contact and I’m grateful for that, but still… it isn’t the same.
All we can ever do, as parents, is try not to make the same mistakes our parents made.
Take care.